Inspiration

So it is 4:05 in the AM and if you know anything about my 3rd and last pregnancy, you would know that this is a normal wake up time for me these days. Well, it has been a while since I have been able to keep up any of my blogs...yes, I know it's corny, but honestly, I seem to not be able to keep a journal for the life of me, and writing online seems so much more doable these days. I feel I have so much to tell, no one to listen (not that I care) but maybe someday people will find this and maybe be inspired...I am all about inspiration these days. Alot has happened in 2009 (and it's only July) that I have been trying to grasp everything and it's meaning as to why me...why us...why to the people I love...

I am exactly 30 weeks pregnant with Shelby Grace and can't figure out how I have actually made it this far. I didn't think it would happen towards the beginning of this pregnancy. This entire pregnancy has been an experience I will never forget and I believe that it has made me an even stronger person for myself, my children and my family. Shelby is my light at the end of this tunnel my family and I seem to be swimming in. I cannot wait to meet her and introduce her to the wonderful people I have in my life.

Life. That's another topic I have been struggling with these days. I seem to look to more people for inspiration to help me realize how lucky I really am. Yes, again, I know this all sounds so cliche, but it's just the way I fell these days. Keeping a positive attitude and focusing on what I have, not on what I don't...what I can do...not on what I can't do...how I live each day, knowing that I am lucky to be here for my family and my children helps me focus on the more important things in life.

I started to re-read The Last Leacture again today. I haven't picked up a book (unless CAH related, parenting related or trashy magazine/ gossip related) since 2004. It really has been a while and it's honestly been too long. This book is inspiring. Inspiring because you, the reader, are not in his shoes. I can do all the things that this man so desperately wants to do, but won't we able to. Certain things get to me these days and this is one of them. If you haven't read the book, go get it, or watch the lecture on You Tube.

I hope that I will be able to post more things on this site that might inspire someone else. I don't feel I am a good writer at all. I don't expect people to follow my blogs, or listen to me be philosophic. I am a terrible speller (please excuse any grammatical errors). I would love to leave behind more than just material things for the people I love while I am here. I want my children to see that being a good person, inspiration, faith and positive attitude are what it really takes to get through life. Chance, Jake, Mia and Shelby are my inspirations. I hope you find yours...